I can’t keep denying it: I am envious. I envy my friends, my parents and my little brother. Not a very pretty emotion. However, it can not be ignored. My envious feelings make me act bitchy, make me upset, frustrated and angry. I experience this feeling because the people around me can live a more carefree life, because they have the energy to go places, and because they can be spontaneous. The people around me can do this because they do not have a chronic illness like I do. They don’t have lupus.