Blog about being envious

How Envy Helped Me Learn to Live Life With Lupus Nov 19, 2018 I can’t keep denying it: I am envious. I envy my friends, my parents and my little brother. Not a very pretty emotion. However, it can not be ignored. My envious feelings make me act bitchy, make me upset, frustrated and angry. […]

Blog for Shadow’s Edge

How to Find Self-Esteem Even During Chronic Illness Dec 4, 2018 This post and image are graciously contributed by Ilse de Cock. Find more of Ilse’s writing about life with lupus in Dutch and English at My illness, lupus, can attack at any moment, in any organ, in every severity for the rest of […]


A couple of days ago I received my wacom tablet, which enables me to work on the go, in bed or on the couch, but most importantly helps me to make my art authentic and original in execution. The strokes are more fluent and I just love the workflow on my tablet!

Painting everyday

This period in my life is probably the most productive up until now. I try to paint or graphic design something everyday. You can only learn by doing and that is exactly what I am striving for. I do like the learning process and the feeling of possibly becoming better and better and eventually good. […]

Another painting project

It might seem like most of my paintings do not connect with graphic design in any way. I do however find it usefull to produce a painting once in a while. Producing ‘useless’ things keep me motivated and enthousiastic. When I make something, over which non will judge, for which no performance stress is nessecary, […]

Meet the artist

Nice to meet you, take a peek into my world About me, Ilse. I am a Holland based artist and designer who focuses on graphic design and documenting my thoughts through paintings. I am an enthusiast, a lover of simplicity and eager to learn. As a creator I am collecting information and impressions everywhere and I […]